I'm currently working on some updates, finally. I just moved again not too long ago, but I will explain everything in my next update! :3

Love you all. <3

- Donna

So.. new problems have been arising for me, as well as my boyfriend.

My boyfriend's mother originally wanted me here to help her out by looking after her daughter while she went to work.. well, this was in August. It is now November, and she STILL hasn't even TRIED to go back to work.. I cannot display all the details here, but basically, she is being neglectful of... everything. One night, I just broke down and cried myself to sleep... because of Adrian's mother not taking responsibility for what her cats bring in, my Lily has worms.. even though she's had all her shots. All I want to do is freak out at her.. my birth mother came to get us this weekend so Lily could get taken care of. ..It shouldn't be her responsibility, it should be Dianne's..
I'm just so tired of this household.. there are health hazards happening here that I won't say....I can't honestly say that I'm happy here.. I've been trying to get work for months without luck, I'm not making any friends that really care about being friends with me, I'm trying too hard to please everyone, and I just.. I don't know, it's like my heart is rejecting this place.. I love Adrian, but I have been seriously thinking about moving in with my birth mother... it's so very tempting..
My birth mother gives me a wonderful feeling of hope, unlike here.. here, it feels as though I'm never going to get anywhere in life. That Adrian's mother living off of a budget for two small people and being lazy, is going to bring me down with them.. Don't get me wrong, she is a very nice, loving person.. but, she has the lack of responsibility to be able to take care of her daughter the way she should be, and to stand up and be a mother.. Her child has never had one ounce of discipline in her life, and they completely ignore what the social worker suggests and tells them to do..
My birth mother lives in Tantallon. Well, French Village, which is a 2 minute drive outside of it. I'd be beside the city once again. My adoptive parents, brothers, sister, niece, and more family would be close by, and so would most of my friends. I would have my freedom back once again because of being able to use metro transit, and there would be different schools I could choose from. I wouldn't feel so lonely..
Of course, the only thing holding me back, has been my love for Adrian. He had just transferred schools after moving out here in September.. he's not doing too well in school right now either way. he misses a lot of school because of his insomnia problems.. he doesn't think he'd come with me (right away), so it's going to hurt a lot if I do this. We had waited so long just to be able to be at peace, to have no conflict.. and now, I'm being handed a situation that I need to decide for ME. I've just.. got a lot of thinking to do, I guess. *sigh*

So.. if you've wondered why I've been lacking updates, this has been why.

Thank you for reading.

So, I'm going to try and update this as much as possible again since before I wasn't even sure what was going to happen in my life, and that made me very, very stressed and depressed. It was a long summer of fun, but a lot of confusion. It is now October, well, the last week, and at least now I have a path to walk on in life.

At the end of August, I moved in with my boyfriend's mother, because she said she needed my help with looking after her daughter and what not, so I agreed happily. I found a place to live in Bridgewater.
People often wonder why I moved here, and I'm not too sure myself, to be honest. I think it's because I wanted a fresh start, to be able to be in a small town where no one but Adrian's family & my cousins up the road from me that I know. It certainly feels a lot better walking wherever I want/need to without running into the assholes from my old high school, Forest Heights, and them trying to start drama. (:

Yet, little did I know, that at the end of September, my boyfriend who lived an hour away from me (by car) was telling his father and his wife that he was leaving because he wasn't happy at all there. Considering his step mother tried to ruin our relationship by trying to keep us apart, he was ready to get away. We needed each other so much; we longed for one another once more. So, to my surpise, when I arrived home one evening from spending the day with my mother, there he was, unpacked and all. I don't remember when I stopped crying from happiness that night. I always clung to him for a while, afraid that he would have to leave once again.

But he wasn't.

So after everything we had to go through to stay together, we were granted an opportunity of being able to live together. It's been bliss ever since.

On another note, what about school you ask? Well, Adrian goes to the high school over here, and I, sadly, had to take a year off... it seems I didn't apply to the school properly. Apparently, since I've been on IPP (Indivudual program plans; for those who have trouble learning) courses my whole school life (I have a learning disability), they're making me apply as a special needs student, ugh.. and they didn't have enough openings.. so, come on September 2010 already!

So that pretty much sums up my life til now.

I've managed to make a few new friends out here, but I'm not sure if they're interested in having a good friendship with me.. but I still try nonetheless. ^^ I have enough friends barely as it is because a lot of people are going around saying I'm like their best friend and all, but when it comes down to it, am I really? I mean, half the people that say that don't call, email, message or do anything at all to show me that they even care about being friends,. certain people whom I will not mention, keep on saying they're really busy and all, but on facebook, I see them talking with people on their walls during the times I was trying to message them myself.. I don't buy it anymore. & I feel like a fool for doing so in the first place. I really miss being with my friends from back home.. some days I feel like Adrian's the only friend I do have, even though I know better.
However, to those who have really still stuck by me, I love you all to death & I hope someday soon we can all hang out again.

A special thanks to Shannon, my waifu. You have really helped me out lately, and I appreciate it very much! ^_^
I miss you. ♥

So, i'll slowly be adding photos again soon. I'm working on drawings right now too.

That's all for now, I suppose... if there's anyone left that's still watching me on here, please let me know you're still alive as well! Lol. Peas? XD

Love,

Donna xo ♥

Hey everyone,

Gosh it's been quite a while. & this may be another update that sticks for a while.. so busy nowadays. ><

Okay, so I just graduated from high school on the 25th, and my, was it quite the spectacular night. Though I didn't go to safe grad, I hung out and talked to my babe the whole night and all I did was laugh.

So, what are my plans now, you ask? Well, I'm not moving until I know where I've been accepted. So far, I've applied to schools in Halifax & to the NSCC in Bridgewater. The school that I originally wanted to go to, I wasn't accepted, so that's kind of a let down. If I get accepted to NSCC in Bridgewater, that's just where I'll have to move, I guess. I mean, I'd miss my friends more cause I'd be further away, but really, most of them never give me a minute of their time anyways.. so, I'd be fine with moving on and meeting more people.



So I'd like to take a moment to say R.I.P. Michael Jackson & Billy Mays. You were both really amazing people. I don't really care what people say about Michael, whether he molested kids or not, I still loved him because he was part of my childhood and that version of him will never go away in my mind. Billy Mays always yelled at people to buy products, but he was hilarious. I enjoyed his commercials.. R.I.P. Guys. <3

So this is my first journal entry.. I’m not too sure on what to say, but I hope I’m not too boring, hahah.
Well I’m in grade 12, and I’m getting ready to move out in August, I also managed to get a boyfriend, who has been my crush for probably the entire school year... we have so much “chemistry”, if you would call it... there’s never a time when we don’t have something to say, we’re so perfect for each other in my eyes. So yeah, this is pretty exciting stuff for me going on right now, considering the last few months were not the greatest with me, but I got through it, and I am now one of the most happiest women on this planet. :3
Things go wrong a lot for me, actually, but for some reason, I can’t stay depressed for very long. I have the greatest friends and I love to laugh, so that’s probably the reason why. I tend to still be able to smile when it gets tough, which, I find, is a very extraordinary skill. Not many people can still do that.
Anyways, my friends are on their way, so I’ll write something new soon!

Thanks for reading!
Love,
Donna