So, Wednesday, February 3rd, was my 20th birthday. My waifu, Shannon came to visit me & Sonja Monday night. I was so happy to see her, even if I had a long, busy day.

We had many random adventures.

Shannon and I caught the bus to go to the Halifax Shopping Centre Tuesday while Sonja was at work and we had so much fun! Shannon bought a lot of things, and she even treated me to many things herself. I really appreciated spending time with one of my greatest friends ever that day. ♥ ^^

Later on that night, my mom took all three of us out to supper that evening at Steak & Stein. We all had such a good time, and my friend Sonja even got the waiter to bring me a bowl of ice cream with a sparkler coming out of it after I was done eatting, hahah! It was so awesome! XD

On my birthday, Sonja said she had some things to take care of, so she lent me her bus pass and Shannon and I were of to the shopping centre once again. She bought me clothes, food, and man, she just treated me to so much, I felt so guilty because I didn't have any money myself. I managed to pay a bit towards our clothes at Ardene, though. Which, turns out, I had left my wallet behind...

Oh my god, that scared me so much!

As Shannon and I were catching the bus, I went looking for Sonja's bus pass, which was securely in my wallet.

...It wasn't there. Shannon started freaking out. I just thought it was one of those "blind" cases where you look all over for something, even though it's right in front of your eyes, so I didn't really let it get to me. It turns out, we couldn't find it ANYWHERE at all.

I started to panick. I didn't even say a word when we got back. Shannon had to explain everything because by then, I had everything emptied on the floor, sitting on my knees, just staring at the floor, hoping I'd wake up from the nightmare soon.. Sonja came down and gave me a hug and said "It's okay", but I didn't think it was.. especially right before I left, where I said "Oh, I won't lose this!". I wasn't even THINKING about how my whole identity was in that wallet. You know, my original birth certificate, my SIN #, Bank Card, all that stuff, I was thinking about a $70 bus pass that I promised my friend that I wouldn't lose. I know, stupid, huh? ^^

So, the three of us ended up coming back to the shopping centre, thanks to Shannon's dad giving us a ride there real quick, to re-trace our steps.

Well, we looked everywhere, asked security, and even the people from the last store we were at. We were there for what seemed like hours. Just when I thought it was hopeless and that I would become a victim of identity theft, I decided to walk into Ardene's store just to look at the floor to see if I dropped it and no one noticed. Well, soon as I walked in there, the girls that worked there all walked up to me with my wallet in one of their hands. I said "You just made my day!" and nearly cried right there. As soon as I got it, I took the bus pass out and quickly gave it to Sonja. We were all so happy. It was like, so much relief, holy lord! XD

I was so happy, I almost started skipping around when we left the store. To celebrate, Shannon bought Sonja lunch, and I had a sundae from Dairy Queen, while Shannon had an orange julius in the food court. We went home shortly after that, where I was greeted with Sonja's super awesome home-made cake! It was so good! <3

There were just so much surprises and fun all this week, I just wouldn't have changed it for the world. & tonight, we're going down town to celebrate my other friend's 20th birthday.


* Here's a rant I just needed to get out. I apologize if it's a little angry, but I'm just tired of guys doing this to me. I thank you for continuing to read! ♥ *


So.. remember how I said I was respecting Adrian's thoughts & opinions?

....Yep. He's a liar. He never even HAD ANY!


He promised me over 4 times that he would start going to school, then to cut out some hours of video gaming, and that he would hit the books, study hard, and socialize, and be a man.. build a future.. ya know? But what has he done? Absolutely nothing. He went to the 1st day of 2nd semester and then that was it. Though he told me otherwise, I asked my friends down there who go to the same school as him, how he was doing in school so far, and their replies were "What are you talking about? He has only been here that one day." I could not believe that he would lie to me once again. And apparently, he's been telling lies to everyone he knows about anything at all. His dad is so upset that his only son doesn't even want to spend time with him anymore.

My friend, Sonja, even planned out a ride in and back just so Adrian could see me on my birthday, and he didn't have to pay a cent.. what did he do? He said no. Why? He couldn't even tell me! He always told me he would do whatever it takes to keep us together, that he'd love me forever and never get over me.. and I was stupid enough to believe it. He didn't even care when I confronted him about all the lies. He couldn't have even cared that I was upset with him. I loved him, and I did everything I could for us. What did I get in return? Emotional break downs, anxiety attacks, lies, and to be spun around in circles; played with emotionally. He acts like this nice guy around everyone, but honestly, he couldn't care less if his own best friend died tomorrow. I broke up with him because I couldn't take it anymore. I was tired of all of this unhappiness.

He told me he would never get over me, that long after I'm over him, he'd still be loving me and all this stuff, but yet, right before he changed his passwords, I saw all these messages from girls and he was flirting with them.. I know that was an invasion of privacy, but it was only one time.. and then he set his facebook profile looking for section to a relationship & dating. Does that sound like someone who only sticks to one woman? I mean, I did cut him out of my life because I am so upset with him, but that doesn't mean I'm exactly over him yet.. but he claimed he was so in love with me, but yet, he was over me so quick.. that is NOT love. I absolutely HATE IT when people use the word love so easily.. I want true love, not just to be a toy or a temporary line of interest for someone... I'm so tired of this, I just wish someone would truly love me.. I thought I had it, but I was wrong, once again!


So.. yeah. That's all for this entry!

Thanks for reading,

Love,

Donna xo ♥