So.. new problems have been arising for me, as well as my boyfriend.

My boyfriend's mother originally wanted me here to help her out by looking after her daughter while she went to work.. well, this was in August. It is now November, and she STILL hasn't even TRIED to go back to work.. I cannot display all the details here, but basically, she is being neglectful of... everything. One night, I just broke down and cried myself to sleep... because of Adrian's mother not taking responsibility for what her cats bring in, my Lily has worms.. even though she's had all her shots. All I want to do is freak out at her.. my birth mother came to get us this weekend so Lily could get taken care of. ..It shouldn't be her responsibility, it should be Dianne's..
I'm just so tired of this household.. there are health hazards happening here that I won't say....I can't honestly say that I'm happy here.. I've been trying to get work for months without luck, I'm not making any friends that really care about being friends with me, I'm trying too hard to please everyone, and I just.. I don't know, it's like my heart is rejecting this place.. I love Adrian, but I have been seriously thinking about moving in with my birth mother... it's so very tempting..
My birth mother gives me a wonderful feeling of hope, unlike here.. here, it feels as though I'm never going to get anywhere in life. That Adrian's mother living off of a budget for two small people and being lazy, is going to bring me down with them.. Don't get me wrong, she is a very nice, loving person.. but, she has the lack of responsibility to be able to take care of her daughter the way she should be, and to stand up and be a mother.. Her child has never had one ounce of discipline in her life, and they completely ignore what the social worker suggests and tells them to do..
My birth mother lives in Tantallon. Well, French Village, which is a 2 minute drive outside of it. I'd be beside the city once again. My adoptive parents, brothers, sister, niece, and more family would be close by, and so would most of my friends. I would have my freedom back once again because of being able to use metro transit, and there would be different schools I could choose from. I wouldn't feel so lonely..
Of course, the only thing holding me back, has been my love for Adrian. He had just transferred schools after moving out here in September.. he's not doing too well in school right now either way. he misses a lot of school because of his insomnia problems.. he doesn't think he'd come with me (right away), so it's going to hurt a lot if I do this. We had waited so long just to be able to be at peace, to have no conflict.. and now, I'm being handed a situation that I need to decide for ME. I've just.. got a lot of thinking to do, I guess. *sigh*

So.. if you've wondered why I've been lacking updates, this has been why.

Thank you for reading.